So many of us are standing on that edge. That fucking edge where you are staring into a ravine..and the vastness of uncertainty is rushing through your body. Keep on breathing, woman. Keep on breathing, man. Fear, curiousity, stillness, sheer terror or even a deathwish to envoke new birth; all these emotions and thoughts shoot waves of energy through your body and beyond.
The fact you are standing here, almost tipping over, is a testament of your soulness. But come the fuck on…this. It is not a walk in the park. So let us not pretend it is, by doing some fucked up spiritual bypassing. I welcome your tears, your sadness, your mourning, your desperation, the part of you that feels soft, mushy and even unseen at times. If there is anything I’ve learned lately, it is that we get to ‘human’ through all of this. That we get to roll with the punches, that we get bruised, that we get cranky, angry at the divine, cross with nature, fear for all the destructive patterns we have become so used to. That we silently or loudly cuss at our guides, ancestors, angels, goblins, unicorns, fairies and what not for this shitload of uncomfortableness and unfairness. You know you are held, but please: Don’t deprive yourself of feeling your fears, desperation and anger. Powerful energies to acknowledge. If we suppress, they will find a way out. And the longer they are denied, the greener the pus. The bigger the backlash.
Do not just look the other way. Do NOT. This is all coming up to be alchemized through your acceptance, through your release, through you allowing to be what is and through that embrace the light and the dark within you. Marry day and night.
Find a safe haven to work through this; be it with your friend, partner, mentor, coach, guide. Because, human and infinite one, you are worthy of experiencing ALL of you. ALL.
Thank you for being real. For being a member of the scar-clan, the tribe of truth and an essential part of the whole. Do what makes your heart feel good and…do what makes your soul feel safe AND expansive.
If you are reading this, life ain’t over yet and you will get through this intense time. You find that this edge, is a portal into the new paradigm. Something will happen. You will bust a groove into soulgrowth. And I hope you know that untill that time is here I am here. Part of your squad.